Never Would Have Made It!

Believe it or not, I sometimes have this ridiculous notion that I can exist on this planet alone, pull myself up by my own bootstraps, I can lean and depend on me. There are a few friends that I can call on, they offer some support, a portion of advice. I read a lot and I'll read a book that's inspiring but then there are times when I'm left with this void.

Sometimes I find struggle. I realize that my finances are tight. I see that my friends have their own lives and can't be available to me all the time. I'm arguing, fighting, and simply miserable, unhappy.

Then "something" happens, it always happens because first and foremost I know that I'm a spiritual being but I'll hear a song, read a scripture or talk to someone and realize I am not alone and I can't make it in this life by my own human strength. Then the resistance that I've been building up that protects me like a good solid gate should begins to crumble.

That's what has been happening to me until last Friday. I was having a bad day. Having a fat day. I was beating myself up really good too since I just got paid and knew that by the end of the weekend I would have less than $100 left in my account. Then I walked into my apartment and turned on the radio and heard this song. I took off my coat, my shoes and the tears fell right along.